Thursday, February 26, 2009

Before I Lay Me Down to Sleep

Im writing this blog quite literally inbetween the sheets. I'm getting ready for bed after watching the Beat Freaks give some pretty awesome performances alongside Quest Crew on ABDC, if you dont watch the show don't bother getting into it now ...11:11...hold on...sorry bout that. Anyways big show for next week planned Thursday Night at 10 watch it just to see some amazing people dance.
Now for more serious topics, tonight i thought about who i know in my life that at any moment i could call and have them right by my side. Not many came to mind but then I realized I dont have everyones number that would probably come help me. I had a dream the other night where i had to help a lot of my friends while trying to keep the guy i'm crushing on at bay...needless to say it's a dream so it ended nicely hand holding and cuddling.
I love to cuddle. no matter what that's the thing that makes me feel safest in a relationship knowing that i can curl up next to my boy and fall asleep. Have you ever seen those pictures of cats curled up in a ball on the floor in the corners of a couch or next to their owners where they just look so at peace and happy that nothing could even try to bother them in that moment. Thats what it feels like. I also love to hold hands, i now know what the genotype is for the specific type of handholding that you do. (Shela knows what I'm talking about) .. Try this out if you dont know clasp your hands together with your fingers laced if your Left thumb is over your right you have a dominant gene for Left over right in your DNA. If it's right over left you have the recessive gene and you wont pass left over right on to your kids unless if your partner has it. I dont know why i found this part of my anthropology class so interesting. But then I feel like i do, i was so interested because i want to know what he does with his hands if he's right over left or left over right. That's how you know i'm crushing, i can't talk to that person and i wonder randomly about them.

okay lets get off topic and talk about food. I'm watching the food network with that guy who kinda is awkward and talks directly to the camera and always says the scientific stuff about the food too. Right now he's making Bruschetta (my mom makes bomb brushetta) but this guys looks pretty good it's making me kinda hungry. Before he was making french toast which i also love, because it's just delicious. My mom makes this little bread things that in my family we call Crustini's , because they are just these little tostettes with honey and some type of cheese.. so good. OK, sorry i dont mean to make anyone hungry by talking about food. I think i'm getting hungry myself...

I found out i can get my ASL minor so i'm really happy, Franco helped me which is no surprise because he's such a great guy. But other then that I can't start working on it until next semester but that's fine with me :).
Alright well now i'm going to go to sleep so i can dream about a certain person whom i will never reveal their name. :).... Have a good night everyone sweet dreams <3 natasha

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

California

Oh San Diego you are so beautiful like a great dream in paradise...





So today was pretty okay, nothing insane just class and that's it. I had lunch with Taylor it was nice she was able to vent about her troubles and we talked about all sorts of topics it was fun I love hearing other peoples points of view when i know they are still an open person and are willing to listen openly. I have this friend his name is Sean, we work together down at ben and jerrys, he makes me laugh. Sean has his own blog at seanphenomenon.blogspot.com i think/hope i spelt that right. He's a pretty chill guy and he always makes me laugh when we work together. At store two he's my dancing and singing partner he's also my intellectual partner we talk about stuff like whether the body and brain are seperate or together. He's a good friend and I rely on him for my daily intake of laughter and jams.

Jams = music that when you put it on you find it difficult to remain seated or still, because you need to dance shake drum or move.

JATM- Jam at the Moment.

my JATM- "Freeze" by T-pain featuring Chris (im the new michael jackson) Brown

I call him the new MJ strictly because people dont like MJ anymore as a person but they still love his music. So to me that's what's happening to Chris Brown and that kinda sucks because he's too young for that to happen but that fool stepped outta line. Men be smart never hit a lady.

I love the beat freaks.. they be my girls. sean knows all about that. im shouting out a lot to sean.

Shela i have a book for you to read. ask me bout that tomorrow.

okay goodnight i love you.

stay classy san diego

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Send Me A Sign

One of these days i will sit.
I will sit and sit and sit, waiting for someone to send me a sign. A large directional arrow as to where i should go what i should do who i should hang with who i should leave behind and forget. One of these days it will come and I will ignore it. I will ignore it for a few seconds and then I'll ponder it's validity and then i will ignore it some more until i finally decide that I'll take it's path and hope that everyone i meet along it will be nice and friendly.
As i sit here tonight and type this im thinking about my friday that i spent at school. I took my anthropology test and felt pretty good about it while i left. I went to my communications class and said a funny speech about bad driving, I learned about stereotypes and how my T.A. is not triple x or Vin Diesel. Then I went to ASL where i decided i was going to minor in ASL and I went to talk to the main desk lady to speak to her about minoring. She told me to talk to the head of the department some Dr. or other. I left him a note because he wasn't in, with my email telling him i wanted to minor in ASL. Class went by fine after that I met Michelle(deaf) Don's(hearing) fiance she's really nice and she was very sweet about trying to get everyone to practice using their newly aqcuired asl skills. She was excited to see everyone working so hard to get things right and having fun with it. After class i wrote on the back of my paper to my professor that i decided to minor in asl. He was so happy and when i told him it was only because of him he said i was sweet and that he was happy to know he had inspired someone. When i got home from the trolley (after i was told by some random homeless that i was the prettiest girl in america) i checked my email.
The ASL doctorate guy told me that ASL wasn't offered as a minor and that it was a program that wouldn't be starting for a few years... I was crushed to say the least. I sent him back an email saying thanks for taking the time to respond wish i could help in some way. Then i sent an email to my professor telling him I was not allowed to minor in ASL and was very upset... he hasn't said anything at all. My day was ruined, then i had to go to work and work. it wasn't funn.

Saturday- also not fun. hung around my house all day then bought some new music worked on my speech for comm which is shaping up quite nicely if i say so myself and now im typing this. so... that's that. I believe i started at 9:23 and now i'm finished nearl forty minutes later.. jeez do i get distracted easily. :/

see ya tomorrow<3 natasha

Friday, February 20, 2009

Thumb-bunny...loves you.

Sorry the title has nothing to do with the post it' s just what popped into my head when i was looking around. Today was rather intense, I had my Euro class which is always boring, then I had salad sensations then went to the library for about 2 hours trying to find stuff for my communications speech. Came home barely focused on actually writing my outline or studying for anthro so then after that i went to Eric's house for some good ol not so very much good times. I feel sick sorta... im just tired. I am trying to study for my anthro class but that's not working. I'm trying to write my outline that's not working either.
So i'm typing a blog instead because that will make that better not. But at least I am willing to try.
Tonight wasn't too fun but tomorrow should be interesting. I have a person i am nervous about seeing tomorrow but I am also excited to . Then there is my test and turning in my outline... both of these.. not too fun but at least it's a part of life.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

"Rawr" means I love you in Dinosaur




So this little cutie is Trevor my cousin to put it in simple terms. If i tried to explain how it is we are related you would become confused and a realization... we aren't related by blood but by love. Trevor is my Grandmother's Best Friends Grandson or Trevor is my mom's godmothers grandson or Trevor is my mom's really good friends they are practically family son. My mom's godmother is Dorothy she has two daughters that my family grew up with as a very close relationship, one of Dorothy's daughters has 3 girls Bree Alyssa and Christa Dorothy's other daughter has 3 boys Jamie Bobby and Trevor. We aren't related by blood at all but we all grew together my three sisters and i with Bree Alyssa and Christa and we all took turns babysitting the boys. Trevor is only 2 and he's turning 3 he's a menace he also has hundreds of nicknames my favorite is T-Crazy and Hambone. He comes over to my house once a week for fun at Kari's (my mom)he and my mom are BFFL. no joke. Today i got in the car from school and he says "my elephant his name Peanut" he just tells me about his day and talks about all the balloons he saw he's kind of obsessed with Balloons right now and then we go home and hang out if i'm lucky i can get him to take pictures on my webcam so that i'll have some of my own. Every girl in my family have pictures of him on our phones on our laptops in our digital camera's he's ours we love him so much to bad he's so CRAZY.. but we love him for it.


Anyways, family rant over rode the trolley with Jon and James i can never catch a break with them those two kill me with the amount of Movie qoutes the drop and James has this baby face that makes any of the faces he makes so highly animated and ridiculous that i nearly piss my pants laughing. Those two guys are just a bucket of chuckles. Today i had my Communications lecture totally boring... and reminded me that I have my speech on Monday.. AHHH I should work on that... seriously. My Anthropology class my test is on Friday.. yikes but I think i'll be good... and my favorite class ASL (american sign language) my favorite classs because it has my favorite teacher. He's a really nice guy and he's completely deaf and he's just the sweetest his girlfriend is hearing and they went to a wedding on sunday and he was telling me the bride was crying and his girlfriend was so happy and excited it was just cute... he's adorable. Valerie and I have a problem with that. :/

Other then that today so far is going pretty well, I get to see Chelsea and Bri tonight so I'm super excited I feel like i have a century worth of information to spill to them but I know it's going to be less but I miss them so so much. Chelsea especially because she's ALWAYS so busy at school. If i was genius enough i woulf have plugged in my camera when i got home so that i could actually take pictures tonight but OH WELL. :(... anyways. Ill post later tonight about our night :)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Kings of Fire

"Sex on Fire" by Kings of Leon (current obsession)
So today, was basic on most accounts of days have been. Something seemed to be in the air though a new breath of life and freedom. I dont know why but it was like everyone had been breathing the same dreary air and the rain from the past few days washed away all of those problems. I am still sick so that problem is still alive and kicking but most of any other problems have gone away. I have decided to stop complaining about my minimalistic and materialistic problems and focus on ones that really matter. Like the problems in the Congo and Uganda. There is a girl who i know from softball and middle school named Lauren, who interned with Invisibile Children for 5 months and she is now going off to ireland to pick non pesticide ecologically sound food for the next few months. She is a talented and golden hearted girl she's been giving herself to our world for some time now and i think it's time we all take a chapter from Lauren's book'o'life. (that's my shout out to you lauren if your reading)

Anyways, today went pretty good classes were fine my euro class is more of like a "copy the slide" class but it was fun because me and john were texting about white jacket which is funny and awkward because he was like three seats away. By the way i dont expect anyone to know what i was talking about right there that's more for my own hillarity to laugh at.
Currently listening: Foxy by Jimi H.

The rest of the day went smoothly girly talks with Tawnee about how American women are actually the ones putting pressure on themselves about weight and how our teens and pre-teen girls are now expecting themselves to stay thin for their whole lives because they think that's all men want. When in fact, I have met a few guys who actually dont like Stick-figure girls which is nice because I'm not one of those types of girls however our society prizes a slender look and even makes it the norm. Tawnee told me about this poster she saw that said the average model is 5 feet 11 inches and weighs 115 lbs, and the average american is 5 feet 4 inches and weighs 140 pounds. I laughed because I don't see the similarity in the two so I dont see why they are being compared. I guesss i can go off on my rampage about how much i hate stereotypes and aspirations that men and women put on looks and beauty.... so here it goes.

Women think men want this slender woman, but at the same time men also want full breasts and full booties this in itself is a contradiction.
Men think that women should be strong but not stronger then them. Which is fine and I nearly agree with that... except for when a woman is being attacked in an alley and can't lift her arm to punch the guy in the face.
Women think that Hollywood actress' and models actually lose weight by working out and eating right... the truth is they go on fasts and they have money to hire personal trainers who go to their houses to get them moving. I'm sure if everyone in america made 10 million dollars everytime they finished a big project at work they'd be skinny too.
Men set standards that only airbrushing and photoshop can reach.
Women can sometimes be led to think that no airbrushing or photo shop is used on a picture but the truth is every picture goes through airbrush and photoshop even those paparazzi photos.

End of Rant.
I don't want to bore people. Anyways I've decided that I'm health I look nice and now I just need to focus on me. Not much else to it. Have a good day I love you all <3 natashacp

p.s. you can sit beside me when the world comes down.

Monday, February 16, 2009

First Days

So this is my first blogger.com blog and to be honest quite refreshing I think here will be a great place to start and unfold the stories that I have in my head. I think it will also be good for me to just be open and honest with everything else I have going on.

I really feel like doing one of those myspace survey's so that everyone can kind of understand where I'm coming from and what I am doing.. I get really annoyed at having to capitolize all of my i's so you may get a lot of those i not I. Sorry but i am just too lazy sometimes.
Well how bout ya'll get to know me:
My name is Natasha C. P. (too much detail gets creepy)
I have three older sisters, and a brother in law... this suggests that one of my 3 beautiful sisters is married which is true.
I like acting like I'm five by watching cartoons and laughing at really stupid scripts from disney.
I love dancing alone in my bathroom and singing country music.
I love hip hop, reggae, rock, alternative, hardcore etc.
I love movies of all kinds including silent films, i really miss all of the golden old movies. Musicals and such of that kind.
I am a huge audrey hepburn fan... that woman is an idol.

if you have questions go on ahead and ask... i think i am going to be more open about who i am and what i do from now on.

p.s.
i like boys. i dont know why i felt the need to put that but i do .. i like boys even though i hate boys... totally normal for a girl right?